I wasn't blogging last night. My daughter treated me to a David Garrett concert (Google him if you have never had the privilege of seeing this performer)and we didn't get home till after 11:00. Tonight - the standard fare of gambling - gambling on the comedy show at the Tulalip that is. Sometimes funny - sometimes a bomb - but its free and its a date night my husband and I stick to almost to a fault. Tonight we struck it big with 2 funny comedians and wouldn't you know it, my iphone was dead. I normally record every night. Might be breaking a law, but I want to get my (free) money's worth after all. I figured I would come home and crash as usual but my 3 Day spirit got the best of me.
I got on the treadmill. I only walked for 1.25 miles at an average of 3 MPH, but its still something - especially for me!!
As I walked and thought about how I could be in bed instead, I remembered.
I remembered how faced with chemo and losing my hair and toenails (yes, that really happened, but it was delayed) I just had to walk - I just had to put one. foot. in. front. of. the. other. and make it through.
I didn't know how being bald at work would affect me.
I didn't know how the pain of chemo would make my legs hurt so bad I could hardly walk at all.
I didn't know how comforting the love and support of EVERYONE - even that stranger at Applebee's would feel.
But. I. Had. No. Choice. But. To. Walk. Keep. Going. No. Matter. What.
That's what this commitment is for me, but this time by choice.
I get to CHOOSE to walk.
I get to CHOOSE to put one foot in front of the other.
I can't EVEN imagine how I will actually be able to accomplish it, but I didn't know how I would get through cancer either - but I did. I survived.
P.S. I would love my daughter (Briauna Mariah on FB) to walk with me on the three day. She can't currently afford registration ($65.00) and the thought of raising $2,300 is daunting for her. (Me too) If anyone is interested in at least sponsoring her registration for the walk - email me or comment here so I can put you in touch with her. I know the rest will come.